I'm still going to be doing daily entries in anytype, but the goal is to be transferring them over here weekly/biweekly.
27.09.23
Got caught in the rain yesterday. Literally. Sending out [sister]'s package and went out when it was a light drizzle. By the time we crossed the street, it was downpour. Luckily, had the foresight to grab the umbrella, which only one of us (and package) could fit under.
this was actually a lot of fun.
in the midst of one of those frequent existenialist moments of crisis, i'd like to say i stand pretty firm in the idea that as long as I spend my time learning new things, whatever they may be, then I'm living a worthy life.
trying to organize all of my thoughts onto this site is a struggle. the neurospicyness is getting in the way a bit. but i do feel like i'm pushing through more than normal.
26.09.23
created this site. that's pretty sweet.
23.09.23
It rained today! It was such a relief to get off of work and come out to cool air and a light drizzle. Right now (around 6 pm), it's actually raining fairly hard outside. I love the sound of it outside the window.
22.09.23
Today was a rough day at work. Understaffed as usual, a lot of the same kind of "drama" going on - drama is in there being a lot of managerial negligence and nepotism - but once I was clocked out and walking home, I feel like I was able to let it all go. I'm way better at this than I was years ago. It's now just the physical echoes that follow me around. Back hurts, feet hurt, etc.
But today [schatz] and I were determined to go shopping for [sister]'s birthday presents. I promised her we would and I kept that promise. I've been telling her for a while now that I'd be better about getting off of work and not just immediately collapsing into a sedentary state. It's hard some days, with my job being so physical, but I want to show her it's possible.
A big obstacle is that we have to do most things by bus, if we can't borrow the car, so the amount of time it takes to do things takes a lot longer than it would normally. This under most cases would probably not be a big deal, but as we've both discovered and discussed, my ADHD brain tends to work backwards in time. A lot of times (like, say, at work) this is useful for time management, but a lot of other times it's a little aggravating and self-defeating. I think about far too far ahead. This is something I need to work on and manage.
things of note/to look into:
20.09.23
Union Berlin's first ever Champion's League game. Against Real Madrid of all teams. They managed to keep them 0-0 for 90+5' before finally conceding which is a damn amazing thing to be proud of. This team has a great story already.
I found an old journal entry (one of my many half-starts in the journaling habit) back from may of this year. all about wanting to quit smoking and all the different things i could do instead of smoking, etc. it took longer than expected, but i'm glad to see that it finally came true, just maybe not the way i thought it would.
I'm excited for the days to be getting shorter. Since I have to go to bed fairly early, it actually gives me a chance to catch the Golden Hour more often.
19.09.23
Making good progress on my digital garden/wiki. I made the switch over to anytype from obsidian. The learning curve is steep, but I've gotten to know most of the inner workings at this point. Obsidian just didn't…fit, something didn't feel right. I think, intuitively, it just didn't fit my aesthetic. And I ended up reading about anytype and the privacy it allowed and it seemed like the smartest switch.
i'm doing a pretty good job of utilizing toggl to track my time. so far it's been useful. at this point, it's about accountability. but it'll be nice to look at it once i have a bit more data to see where my time goes. in a few days i'll have 2 weeks worth of data, but so far i see that the majority of my time is spent sleeping or working. in 3rd place, which is something i want to work on, is video games. Although I'm totally okay with taking time to unwind, I don't want it to be a majority of how I spent my non-working and non-sleeping hour. This should be further down the list. A goal to fix by the time I have a month of data.